Love Letters in the Storm

♫⋆｡♪  Heavenly Chemical Reaction   ₊˚♬ ﾟ. ⇄              ◁◁  I I  ▷▷          ↻ 00:11 ━━●━━━━━━━━ 04:44 Fallen Star - The Neighbourhood ( 1st, chapter 100) Right Here - Chase Atlantic I Wanna Dance With Somebody - Whitney Houston ( 1st, chapter 48) Hands Down - Dashboard  Confessional  ( 1st, chapter 48) Wicked Game - Chris Isaak  ( 1st, chapter 48) Please Forgive Me - Bryan Adams  ( 1st, chapter 48) I Do It For You -  Bryan Adams  ( 1st, chapter 48) Heaven -  Bryan Adams Hungry Eyes - Eric Carmen  ( 1st, chapter 48) Rest In Pieces - Saliva  ( 1st, chapter 48) The Mixed Tape - Jack's Mannequin  ( 1st, chapter 48) Are You Gonna Be My Girl - Jet  ( 1st, chapter 48) Aftertaste - Ben Lee  ( 1st, chapter 48) Butterflies - Tony Anderson  ( 1st, chapter 44) Le Temps Des Roses - Stanislas...

     I think the reason may be that I've never read about a character I could fully relate to, not only appearance wise, but truly feelings wise. It always bothered me that issues like self-esteem and fear of abandonment and fear of trusting someone and anything like that, were so easily delt with and the authors made the character get over it so fast, without struggle, without any of the real healing process and difficulties to get there.     Another reason would be that, in other books I read where the main character is chubby/fat, it is rather romanticized and doesn't mention the depth of the suffering that goes with growing up fat. I never see authors write about what it's like being fat, even when they represent fat people in their art. So I decided to do it. Being fat isn't just a trope in a romance book. It's trauma and growing up hating yourself. It's not your mother calling you names and the love interest hearing it and reassuring you. It's being f...

Well, I really wanted to explain the whys and the hows of my books and their creations. I wanted to write it down and find the right words to explain why I wrote them, and why the main character is me, why I talk about the things I talk about, why I included the things I did.      I started writing Anger is Bliss when I was in 11th grade (damn, the number 11 is everywhere innit). At that time, I hated my life a little bit, to be honest. I hated school, as I said in my acknowledgements. The buildings themselves were beautiful and I miss it every day, but the pressure, the schedule, the teachers I had, how it was at home, in my head...it was all draining and it made my mind messy.      I admit I started writing to escape how miserable I was, but also how BORED I was with my life. Just like Andrea, I hate it when nothing happens, when everything in your life is neither good or bad, when nothing is really happening. It gets overwhelming because I have no oth...